I examine the interconnected possibilities of the abject body as a site for the rehearsal of our own obliteration. Through a variety of wet and messy techniques to express the leaky body, often involving sweet, sticky, and artificial substances, I question the lure of erotic disgust and the extent to which the body-image can and does exist across space and across time. This strategy is often executed through a multi-channel, combined live and virtual performance work as a method of implicating my audience that invites them to question, when presented with both, what takes priority. I look to glimmers of resistance to censorship throughout history by tracing my queer ancestry and my own childlike-sensibility and approach to play in kink. These ideas are absorbed through semi-permeable membranes, such as the surface of my skin, and are expelled onto the surface of the screen, broadcasting out, welcoming others in.